sooo, this week has been a little rough going...maybe the past two weeks. I am sure some of you who I have seen this week would be shocked, but a few of you lucky ones I have vented to. hahaha
It's been rough in the essence that I am way over my quota for BS!! WAY OVER! I will admit...I am a bit wrapped around the axle. Stress I put on myself, but also just going nonstop in my professional life and personal. Maybe cause I see the light at the end of the tunnel and I am just plowing through...who knows...
The other night while I was workin on some stuff, the new video by John Mayer came on for the song "Say." It was a pretty sad video. Anyways, last night I got off work at the Urban...came home....did a little more work and then decided to call it a night a bit early. Admittedly a little bummed.
Sitting in bed...grab my Bible...read a bit...listen to music while doing two soduko games...and then I look over at a picture I have by my bed...and just BURST into tears! The picture of my sweet grammers and Cupie. Not a day goes by I don't miss my grandpa dearly...I will probably never get over losing him...he meant way to much in my world and knew me almost better than I know myself.
It then hit me that my brother is turning 30...30!!! So weird! It would have also been my Grandpa Chuck's 80th birthday...thus making me miss him so much since he was the only one I was close to on my father's side. Yep, the crying doesn't stop there...my sweet friend Liz died a year ago tomorrow. She was on her saturday run...training for a marathon when a car got blinded by the sun...struck a pole...killing sweet Liz instantly.
If I just bummed you out with this blog...that was not my intent. Death happens...its life...doesn't mean its easy...doesn't mean you will be over it. I'll be honest...I have lost a ton of people in my life...some are still such unreal losses...I almost can't fathom them if I think about it.
All this to say...even as CHEESY as this is "say what you need to say"...whatever that is...life is so short...you never know what is around the corner. With that being said...I truly do LOVE you all...truly...life is busy, but that doesn't mean that I don't care or are too busy for you. If you get that impression...tell me...I LOVE HONESTY...huge fan of it...if ya didn't know ;)
I am so excited to leave Sunday for Nashville to see SOOOO many of my dearest friends, and then onto San Diego to see SOO many more of my favs! I LOVE YOU ALL and am blessed to have you all in my life!
xoxo,
Annie
