Obsessed With Camerabag!!

Yea, I pretty much love love love this app on my iphone! It makes pictures turn out that much more amazing!! Now, to somehow figure out a way to get these into prints...hmmmmm!

Speaking of prints, I am oh so excited for two paintings that are coming my way! My friend Drew "Pumers" has recently (in the past yr. or so) discovered that he has a talent in the arts. One that he is sending me as a gift is an owl...love it...and then I wanted to be his first paying customer for the second one I requested...the "robot bird"...although I think I would call it the "toy bird" instead cause it has a lil windup on its back. I am not giving in any justice! But when I get the paintings and get them settled in nashville you will see some pics. And then you can order your very own originals ;) Gotta help your friends get started...so a little plug for Drew.

alrighty, I am crashing after another night of packing a box, visited with Robyn for a bit, looked for places to live, and wrapped up 3 options of movers...now for the calling, scheduling, and figuring out how the payment all goes down.

xoxo

Hard To Leave

So, this adorable one in the pic is my gma! She is quite amazing and is kinda of my 2nd mom! After my gpa passed, my mom and I have taken on the responsibility of balancing her out since mom and I are a LOT like gpa...obviously more my mom then I since I live in Seattle now. Anyways, my gma knows I am moving...she's known it was a possibility since the end of November. When I first told her, she was quiet...the next time I went home and we went for a little walk and she new in her heart that this was right for me and the time has finally come.

I have to admit, I am dealing with a sense that I am abandoning her. I know that is not reality, but we are a VERY close family...and well she is not healthy and I now have to face the reality that I will prob get "that call" when I am in Nashville. Depressing thought I know, but when it comes to that stuff...I just like to be real and prepare myself early on.

The great thing though....TECHNOLOGY!!! Yep, I am a HUGE fan!!! Reason being is that I get to be a part of the family gatherings thanks to a little thing I like to call video chat! THREE CHEERS FOR VCHAT! I think without this I would def go through some depression...not being able to see the gma, 'rents, josh and hallie, taylor and ben. I mean, I am not gonna lie....I have a pretty terrific family!!

Anyways, I was supposed to call the gma tonight, but didnt cause I teared up the minute I was gonna call and I know I need to be strong for her...so we will try again tomorrow night. oh goodness.

love my family and will miss my friends here...and will miss Seattle, but home is always home. I am excited for the venture ahead and feel lucky to going out to nashy for the nail...and well of course hang with all my wonderful friends out there and the surrounding southern states :)

xoxo

No Dating In '09

Yes, its true...I have said that I am NOT dating this year. WHY?! Well, there are a few reasons why I am having this state-of-mind. No, it's not necessarily a New Years Resolution and it's not a promise to God....it's a state-of-mind...I guess. I guess I am tired of the pressure of dating, find the "one," and well I am really tired of the situations I get mixed up in.

Obviously, I am not writing this to bash on anyone....I obviously have liked the guys for one or more reasons that I have "dated"...but I guess I am tired of being taken for granted and not being treated the way I deserve. And PLEASE...anyone who knows me...I don't have the "Princess" mentality at all...so don't go thinking that...I am pretty stinkin independent...shoot, I was a farm girl for 7 yrs of my life (haha)!

I guess a few months ago I was confronted on separate occasions by some of my guy friends and well, to sum it all up...they basically told me that the guys I was involved with over the past year+...were not good enough for me, that they were disrespecting me, taking me for granite, and my guy friends couldn't watch it go on anymore. I never thought I would be the girl that anyone would say that to....

I am typically the person that once I am engaged (not engaged. ha) with someone...friendship or more...I stick with them regardless of lies, misleadings, well some pretty DB moves...I just love to love on people...even when it means I get shat upon (that is not said for you to feel bad for me...I am made the way I am...I like it better then being bitter and hateful...ha)

So over the past few months, I have just stepped back and re-evaluated the situations and am just thinking...I just don't need the drama, the disrespect, the misleadings....so why not just go in thinking I am not gonna date. It honestly has freed my mind up of feeling the pressure and just enjoying simple friendships and getting to know people with out the whole caring about anything more then that.

Now sure, if a guy came along and all was great...I could date this year..but for now, I am just going to enjoy these freed up moments...the no drama...the no wondering...and just be...chill...and enjoy life for what it is now.

So thank you to my guy friends and girl friends who love me so much to call situations out when I am just blindly loving people to my detriment...which isnt bad when you are aware of the issues. I still love the dudes and care about them, but from afar. I am blessed with some truly amazing friends all over this country...and I am so amped to travel all over and see you....we are definitely going to be making some amazing memories this year.

xoxo

Half Marathon

Well, I am going to start training this week for a Half Marathon - Rock and Roll one that is taking place in June. I have always wanted to do one, but just never really put it into action and well now thanks to some coworkers and friends....we are gonna run this thing together. I am pretty amped about it.

This is a new year with lots of changes and exciting things ahead. Running a half marathon can soon be scratched off my list...can't wait

PS...check out david ford...kinda hooked on his music! best line off the song "Laughing Aloud" is "secrets are made for people who intend to get away with being in the wrong."....think about it!