I have toiled with a few topics to write about, but this week has been absolutely insane...work work work. As you can tell I am taking a break :) Among the topics of consideration for this blog are as follows: family funnies, gym: daily entertainment, the gift of friends, church and relevancy, but the "Heart Condition" won. Why? You will understand after reading. It's a topic that I feel continually comes up...and I am gonna throw my 2 cents in on all this...
Ready? And GO
When I say "heart condition"...it is in reference to your heart and the way you love and treat others. Not to give myself props or that I am amazing (even though I kinda am. ah hahaha), but I love people. Don't get me wrong...its not all roses and lollipops, but I honestly love people and want to love on them. Let them understand that I care and no matter what will be there for them. It is true that my life is pretty crazy busy, but if you know me...which ya'll do for the most part. You know that I am genuine. I am open and honest. I believe in being an open book. You ask me a question...I will give you an honest answer (yea yea...I have told a few lies...I am not an angel...contrary to belief. ha), but you get what I am saying. I try to honor ones heart and where they are at in life...even if that means putting my feelings aside. Just ask Jess! She calls me the honorary Korean. haha. I also tend to fully trust people. You pretty much have my full trust, until there is reason the trust is broken. Also, I am not one to give out false compliments or just say something I don't mean. My mom used to say, "Say what you mean, and mean what you say." I try to live by that the best I can. Finally, I am not afraid to say I am wrong and to apologize. Don't worry...I am not one that always has to be right ;)
Obviously all that I have said and explained about myself...sets me up for hurt. TRUST ME....I KNOW! :) And yes, I have been very angry at God that I am made that way...cause I don't want to be someone that people walk on. In reality, I know I am not. And at times, as evil as this sounds...I wish I could stay angry at people or and just be "bitchy", but that is way too much effort. In all honesty, how do those girls act like that day in and day out!! You know that ones I am talking about. "bitchy" chicks who have no qualm about treating people like shite. How so they live...that has to be exhausting...not to mention they prob don't have a ton of people that actually want to be around them. (of course I am not a fan of all...I think my dislike list is up to 8 people). If you piss me off...give me sometime at the gym...or give me some time to process...and things will be back to peachy keen.
I digress a bit...
Recently I am shocked at how people CHEAPEN others! You can take that a lot of ways...and to be honest...that is a FULLY loaded statement. Saying things to people that you don't mean just to keep them around, using people for your own benefit, manipulating others to get what you want, making one have feelings for you when there are more then two people involved (yes yes...this is directed at relationships). I mean, we are all in the industry (a lot of us are) and we are all pretty much connected and know what is going on.
Life isn't easy. There is so much drama going on already. Why add to it? Why not treat people the way you desire. Love them whole heartedly. Guard their hearts. Don't cheapen what could be so much more. Don't use people because you can. Don't always be the "talker" and not the "listener." Cherish the time you have with people...
This blog stems from personal stuff and from convo's with others...and has been on my mind. Hopefully it all made sense...since this is like word vomit. hahah. ewwww :) All this to say....LOVE one another...TRULY...honor each other...DO NOT CHEAPEN someone. Have a heart and love with it!
Now, back to more work for me....yay for another late night :)
love you all and hope to see ya soon
PS...CANT WAIT FOR APRIL 20-28 - Nashville & San Diego here I come...I AM GIDDY! Miss and LOVE you all...such an overdue trip!!!!
