Soooo, today was ROUGH...well, it started yesterday with the news that 14 of my friends down in San Diego had all been laid off. Understand that this company, Youth Specialties, has had my attention and my heart since I was a freshman in college...and through nothing short of a blessing I was able to be apart of the YS family when I worked at World Vision....partnering on the program One Life Revolution (artwork of the program is the tattoo on my neck). So, i have been apart of this family for almost 6 yrs now. I love them all so dearly...they mean a lot to me and know me just as well as my own family does...heck there have been times where I have struggled with almost working for them, but for some crazy reason I could never find a peace about that. Which I couldn't understand since they have a lot of my heart and I believe in their mission. But now I get why....
After hearing the news, I teared up...went on a walk...and vented to my mom! There are so many things about this decision and the people they laid off that I would argue is the WORST decision ever, but as Tic said when we talked about things...its not good to feed the fire and dwell on it. I will say this....Zondervan made a decision that I would say was irresponisble, ridiculous, and poor judgement when they BLINDLY paid 4 million for a social networking...hello, people...you could have bought it for 1 million...no need to pay such a HIGH and OUTRAGEOUS amount to the detriment of laying off people in such a horrible economic climate and lose focus of the ministry behind the companies you are acquiring. Ok ok....I will put my rage aside!
So, my sweet friends Jody and Steve, Debbie Yost, and someone I consider a mentor and respect so much, Tic....were all laid off, amoungst 10 others. I would ask for your prayers for them. I talked to Tic on the phone today and admire is attitude and how he is still going to finish out his 6 months with focusing on the relationships and loving on the people. Gosh, I just love my YS fam. and wish I was down there with them during this hard time.
Secondly, we unfortunately had to let one of our own go today....Derek Tenbusch. it's sad and horrible...cause like YS...Tooth and Nail...we are a TIGHT family...so there's another bummer
And then well...figuring out where I am going to live...some other personal stuff that I am just healing from...its just been a day!! And I will admit that I just had a huge urge to drown my sorrows...which when the feeling arises...I NEVER would...so I went for a run...had a good cry...talked to one of my besties...blogging...gonna watch Lost...send a few emails...have a little Bible study...then hopefully I can actually sleep tonight.
sorry this is such an emotional blog...its just hard to know I have so many people I love hurting and I cant do a thing about it but pray, which I know is what I need to do...but I love to do...so its hard to sit by. GAH! OK, I'm done.
xoxo
