As much as I want to say that 2011 has been off to a great start...the reality is...it has not. It has been one thing after another and in every aspect.
The picture you see above is a picture of Brynna and her son Bryce. I have known Brynna and been tight with her family since she was in 4th grade...many great times, many hard times, and many tears. With out going into too much detail, Brynna's 4 yr. old son Bryce passed away this last week. He had just gotten sick when I was back in Seattle for Christmas. And now the sweet little guy is in heaven. I would ask that you please all pray for Brynna...she is a single mom and Bryce was very much her world. I can't imagine what she is feeling and going through. I hate that I am not back in Enumclaw to comfort and be there, but very thankful for the gift of texting.
Bryce's death along with a message I heard a few weeks ago spurred so many thoughts in my head the last few days...which a death usually does. A) What is my legacy that I will leave behind? B) Have my last words to people been what I want them to be? C) Am I living my life the way I am called to? There are more thoughts and questions I went through, but these 3 were ones I had to define.
I know what I want my legacy to be and I am striving after that. My last words to a certain person were not how I wanted them to be...so I made it right. Something I am called to do I have put it into motion.
As much as I have let you in a bit as to how 2011 has not been off to a great start...God has been so INCREDIBLY faithful. I know I would have every right to be mopey and sad, but I have such joy. I choose joy. And the things that God has been affirming in my readings, at church, and in conversation have just been nothing short of Him showing Himself true. I honestly can't help but smile...as cheesy as that sounds.
I am trusting God for more this year.
Lyrics to "Blink" by Revive:
Teach me to number my days
And count every moment before it slips away
Taking all the colors before they fade to gray
I don't want to miss even just a second more of this
It happens in a blink
It happens in a flash
It happens in the time it took to look back
I try to hold on tight, but there's no stopping time
What is it I've done with my life
It happens in a blink
When it's all said and done
No one remembers how far we have run
The only thing that matters is how we have loved
I don't want to miss even just a second more of this
Slow down, slow down
Before today becomes our yesterday
Slow down, slow down
Before you turn around and it's too late
